Smile 4 Me Lyrics - Singles - Amil

My life, is in the hands of the man upstairs 

Through trials and tribulations, he'll always be there 

You see, I know he loves me and I know he cares 

And he'll never put more on me, than I can bear 

Is it a blessing to live or a blessing to die? 

Let me finish out this hell with no questions why 

I should be happy I'm on and dressing fly 

But is the game changing me for the extra pie? 

If you could just look into the life I live 

Three sixty catching up to all the trife I did 

Got my people up north trying to slice the bid 

While I'm in love with a nigga, with a wife and kid 

Maybe if my pops ain't abandon me 

I wouldn't let so many niggas take advantage of me 

Using me, some even put their hands on me 

I wonder what the most high got planned for me 

My life line getting shorter when I look in my palms 

Swore I'll be nothing like my biological mom 

She ain't raise me so naturally I never felt a bond 

At sixteen got my GED never saw a prom 

I been weak and I been strong 

I been through the fire, I been through the storm 

I try to do right and I know I do wrong 

Just be happy for me when my life is gone 

'Cause, no more hurt and no more tears 

There'll be no more pain and no more fears 

No more people in my face that's not sincere 

So, smile for me when I'm no longer here 

At a young age I let the world turn me out 

Pellets and purple haze been burnt me out 

A hard knock life is all I learned about 

Trying to eat the only thing I be concerned about 

Telling my youth everything happens for a reason 

Let him know it ain't that his father wanted to leave him 

If it wasn't for the streets he'd still be breathing 

Trying to raise him myself but I know he need him 

Me and my seed used to live off mostly welfare 

Only two checks a month for us both to share 

I remember making sure that the coast was clear 

So, I could boost us some muthafucking clothes to wear 

Had to hustle 'cause them food stamps just wasn't enough 

Upstate back to Broadway got to go re-up 

All this fast cash only turned the heat up 

Can't afford to get knocked but who gonna feed us 

I been weak and I been strong 

I been through the fire, I been through the storm 

I try to do right and I know I do wrong 

Just be happy for me when my life is gone 

'Cause, no more hurt and no more tears 

There'll be no more pain and no more fears 

No more people in my face that's not sincere 

So, smile for me when I'm no longer here 

Can't shake these thoughts of suicide 

Anyone I ever loved or was close to, died 

Ones I trusted or thought was being true lied 

A lifetime of tears but just a few I cried 

Try to take my past, stick it up on a shelf 

But, my actions stem from all the pain I felt 

I'm just trying to make the best out the hand I dealt 

If I fall, who can I turn to for help? 

Hope my man with me and not my wealth 

Will he be there through good and bad sickness and health? 

Does he want the real me or somebody else? 

I been in wars just so I don't hurt myself 

Now that I'm on most can't stand me now 

But they was happy when I rocked all them hand me down 

When I need them, funny how they can't be found 

That's why the most high's my only family live 

I been weak and I been strong 

I been through the fire, I been through the storm 

Try to do right and I know I do wrong 

Just be happy for me when my life is gone 

'Cause, no more hurt and no more tears 

There'll be no more pain and no more fears 

No more people in my face that's not sincere 

So, smile for me when I'm no longer here 

Yeah, it's right, my life 

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