Paralytic States Lyrics - Transgender Dysphoria Blues - Against Me!

She could hear them fucking through those thin hotel walls 

She heard babies crying, she heard laughter, she heard sirens 

Red and blue lights flashing through those cheap hotel drapes 

Blood spilled out on the porcelain 

The bathtub's overflowing 

Paralytic states of dependency 

Our waking life's just a living dream 

Agitated states of amazement 

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be 

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be 

Spread out face down on those stained cheap hotel sheets 

She spent the last years of her life running from the boy she used to be 

Cut her face wide open 

Shaved the bone down then pumped her lips up exaggerated 

A fucked up kind of feminine 

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be 

Night time at the hotel 

There was fighting in the hall 

Thin chain lock to keep the world out 

She held her breath till it was gone 

Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror 

In her dysphoria's reflection, she still saw her mother's son 

By the time the ball dropped, it was already over 

No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow