1 Of 4 (thank You) Lyrics - Singles - Aesop Rock

1 of 4... 

My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz 

I was born in 1-9-7-6, at Biosfet hospital, located in Long Island, NY 

I am 6 foot, four I weigh 2-0-0 pounds 

I have brown hair and green eyes 

I enjoy writing songs, painting, movies and diner food 

I have two brothers, Chris and Graham 

and two parents, Paul and Jameija 

In august of 2-0-0-1 I went crazy.. 

This was originally not for public consumption 

This was made for four people... four people that literally saved my life 

They know who they are.. 

And ahhh I mean I could live to be a thousand years old and never re-pay them 

I don't think this song would pay them 

But hopefully by putting it out, push the bank a little further.. 

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This ain't a burner for the whips (no it isn't) 

This ain't even Aesop Rock fly earthworm demeanor (no it isn't) 

My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz and I was born in Long Island, New York 

Seventy Six, before Graham and after Chris... OK 

In August of 2001 my seemingly splinter-proof brain bone, scaffolding imploded 

I kept it on the hush, but nearly tumbling 

to the cold hard concrete on near bodega trips 

for cigarettes and soda, shook me to casper 

Dizzy with a nausea chaser, motor sensory eraser 

Gorophobe tunnel vision, guilt, self loathing arrangements 

Rose rapidly out a bog I'd never fished in 

that abates three separate foreign meds 

While I use the hook line and sinker simple fishing 

Simple primitive self taught, easing of soul, mind and body 

but the symptoms rejected my cave-man modus operandi 

So now it's one fish belly up, through medicated mileage 

Shrinks that get 250 an hour for awkward silence 

And, I'd be lying if I said all of this 

made even the slightest fragment of sense to me 

That's real... Simply put 

I don't know what happened, or what's still happening 

I literally feel like I'm teetering on the blunt edge of my sanity 

JAIME, I killed the robots and I'm sorry 

Broke down in front of you, embarrassed 

but you lent a heart and hand that only you could 

you're one of my best friends and yes I'd take that bullet for you 

That's my word, which is about all I have left 

TONY, I know you know I'm crazy, 'cause you told me 

but that did never bother you, I hold you as my brother 'til death 

And I got your back if ever the drunk goblin step 

for makin' a cat laugh, when I was walking with the dead 

KATHERINE, mother figure, older sister, concerned be a limits 

Letting me know I wasn't the only one with this 

Continuous offers for vacation, Chicago visits 

Talked me through repair of a head full of broken pistons 

RIYAH, for the late night movie rentals and the company I needed 

An' you knew it, but I just wouldn't admit it 

You listened to me blab about my issues for hours 

Offer incredible advice, gave me a hug when I was finished 

Am I a jack of all trades? Nope... I like to write songs tho' 

Are they good? I dunno.. 

But I could tell you that I only write shit down when I believe it 

So take this how you want, but know I mean it 

I want you all to know that I'm scared 

Out my fuckin' crooked soul and never faced a monster like the last few months 

ever in my whole life... I wish I could explain this better (I can't) 

But the pieces won't formulate it to anything even close to cohesive 

So I guess this is my feeble way to thank you 

Four soldiers that extended something sacred off the purity of kindness 

I owe you all my life and please don't argue with that statement 

'Cause without y'all I may not have a life to offer, take it 

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Thank you 

I wish I could explain this better. (Thank you) 

I'm sorry for burdening your pleasures. (Thank you) 

I love you all with all that's left of me. (Thank you) 

For helping try to kill what made a mess of me. (Thank you) 

Somehow, someway. (Thank you) 

I'ma get you back someday. (Thank you) 

Just gotta figure this all out... So.. 

I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back 

How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures 

Other men operate normally under 

I have soaked this out from all angles, walking through time 

I have been over everything in my head, still I can't think anymore 

But I guess some times, when you can't breathe, there are people there 

to breathe for you 

I am lucky enough to have those people around me 

Thank you for helping me to not die 

Thank you for helping me to not die 

Pocket full of pennies, and a soul gone tilt 

Cockpit full of memories and a dream full of guilt