Grotesque Lyrics - A Life Once Lost

These words collapse your confidence 

Your destructive existence is nauseating 

Fake, with no self-esteem, you're nothing 

You change with manic uncertainty 

Now I will be the master 

Now I will choose my boatswain 

I push myself in and out of relationships 

But I don't know you 

I push myself in and out of control 

But I don't own you 

Exactly how should I stand here 

Waiting for you to finally answer 

As you verbally bash me