As the car begins to roll. I smile as I lose control. This weightlessness is such a gift. 'Cause gravity has lost its hold. . I see the sky and then the ground.
Last night I found heaven. It's on the tip of my tongue. And it reminded me of. All the times I was young. . I've got you right in my view now. I used to smile till the day I fell down.
If I think therefore I am. Where halos have been made. It's not that your an homage. Your a dead end philosophy. . I'll never let a tie be my noose. I'll never stop searching for the truth.
My memory hangs like the stain glass. Of the saints past history. I bury deep, Saint Anthony. I hear that he can help me. Find the things I need. . Alaska winters pray.
I'm climbing out of the hole. That I've been digging. Throwing out all the blue prints. I have drawn up for the safe house. . I stashed away enough food for forty days.
Clip my angels wings. I'm a coward, I'm a liar and a cheat. My vows all mean nothing. I'm weaker than a priest. Board up the windows and lock all the doors.
I spend my life driving without headlights. I'm running from who I am. I've got my back laid across the iron tracks. Waiting for life to pass. . I hit the floor so hard.
If I fall or trip back into love. I'm going to bring a ladder and gloves. So I can climb right back out. If there's ever even a shred of doubt. . I'm gonna bring a flashlight too and.
I give blood to prove to myself that I can matter to somebody else.. Is what makes a man the dirt on his hands?. Don't put your faith in the desert sand, because the wind is always blowing..
I've gotta start livin'. Cause my life's passing me by. I'm a wreck, I'm unraveling. You're in the front row as I'm struggling. The spotlight shines showing everyone.
My Irish eyes look out at the Atlantic. I think I drink enough to probably drain it. Then I could walk to Spain through valleys that were once full. And face each day like a ballet with a bull.
Sometimes I feel so meaningless. Tangled up in the widows web. The more I struggle. The tighter the noose will get. . I'm screaming for help. Outside of the school for the deaf.
Empty frames on the floor. Theres nothing left to prove who I was before. I burn the pictures before I leave. And while I prance off from the scene. The embers will help me to breathe.
The Garden State. Has never looked so pitiful and gray. As I awake to the garbage left today. I hope they take all of my old mistakes. Cause I can't seem to shake them on my own.
I take a shot of Jameson or Jack to start the morning off with old friends.. I'll celebrate it like it's the anniversary of the day that we first met..
Fireworks at dawn as I sip for assistance. This flask keeps me calm, it reflects back my bent image. Of someone who's lost and getting older by the minute.
I tried to be the one that everybody loved. Where has that gotten me?. I tear my self to shreds to prove that i'm someone. That I could never be. . Now these unslightly marks define me.
I blame myself. For never saying anything. You're dead to me. But I'm the fool who still believes. . That one day you'll actually see. That you missed out on everything.
This head is haunted by a chorus in the sky. The voices aren't mine. I kiss the darkness as I see the whites of their eyes. They're crawling up my spine.
Lyrics to Ali For Cody:. I'm giving up all expectations. That I will live a meaningful life. I once was filled with inspiration. That lion heart has lost his pride.