Look at me. And tell me if there's something. Strange you see. Am I special - something's wrong. - can't be the only one. Talk to me stare me in the eyes.
Like leaves on trees in fall. I'm shivering I'm falling. Like the screams from a new-born child. So innocent so fragile. Screaming struggling trying. I want to see what the future holds.
See my sorrow. My tears when they fall. Feel my anguish. Where's my shelter when I am cold. My eyes seek something. But finds nothing at all. My souls screams for mercy.
You can't possibly know me. What I feel cause even I don't. A strange sensation of never being lonely. Has made me question the essence of existence. ...of life.
1 step at the time. Small progress seems futile. But is as valuable as life. I'm engaged to longing. With sorrow as the ring. Controlling me, denying me.
The sun is back again the day is here. Try to recall try to remember. What night brought upon me this time. There it is I've seen it before recognise the shape.
Strapped in a bed with no clothes. The room has no windows. I try to remember last night. But there's nothing. It is cold and my body starts to shiver.
I've been searching for so long. For someone to lead the way. And I've been searching for someone. Someone to ease the pain. And I've been searching for someone.
Fragments of the past flash before my eyes. Never ending streams of images colliding. Silhouettes of memories slowly fading away. Illusionary seductions haunts me in my dreams.
I've tried it all. It's gone too far. And the worst of all. Is the promise that I can't keep. . I have emptied every source. I have learned all there is to know.
The silence awakes me. My heartbeat would so easily reveal me. Who am I what is left is it my mind. That constantly deceives me. . I am beginning to doubt me.
Feel free to question me. Let out the hate you feel. Blame all your doubts on me. And your caving reality. I will not judge, I cannot judge. So feel free to question me.
Twilight. Still not dark. The snow on the ground sheds some light. A silhouette not taller than a child. Appears in the doorway. Too strange to be real yet too real to be a dream.
Compelled to speak when not to speak. My words lead and I follow. I must talk or else I'm weak. Let no one know my shell's hollow. . False world created.
Show your soul for birth of freedom. Leave the cold to share our vision. Will you follow me. Will you walk with me. We'll hold your heart if it bleeds.
I place my foot on the first step. That leads me down into my fate. So father please forgive me. As I cannot see it end. I am now up on the table. It trembles under my weight.
Climbing walls of an endless circle. Walking paths you never heard of. Struggling in an endless battle. Searching for a higher purpose. . Drowning in betrayals river.
Feel free to question me. Let out the hate you feel. Blame all your doubts on me. And your caving reality. I will not judge, I cannot judge. So feel free to question me.
In depths so deep I can't believe. Confusion conquers and frustration wins. Into where light does not reach. This is where pain and sorrow meets. . Into denial.
Lord, if you don't help me I can't get through this. I can't. Lord, I'm too old for games. Foolish wisdom. . And I'm tired of rhetoric, meaningless rhetoric that never changes things.