This isn't who I am. From confidence to self doubt in sixty seconds. Storming stages and stereos from here to there. Trying to prove that I belong. Trying to win approval from people that I don't know.
I'm weak like a one-armed boxer. Throwing punch after punch. After punch I, I give in. I'm so dumb, I'm surprised when they duck. . Scared, paired walking soldiers.
That's just like me when everything's gone wrong. To latch onto something even less stable, less good. I needed an anchor for my sinking ship. It's just like me to attach it to my heart instead.
You never really knew. The things you learned would matter,. The things you did and didn't do would someday define you,. The things you hate the most,.
It's getting cold. Thought it was too soon to tell but it was terribly old and as the heartbeat slows to a heartless crawl. The lights went out,. The lights went out and darkness filled the house on tiring night under a Long Island sky.
If our world falls down tomorrow. You be sure I'll be there with a net. To catch the pieces falling. And I was always there. . And I was always there.
I can't go on. Deflate the air from both of my lungs. Fears one by one followed me home. And became reality. . I'm a failure, I'm a freak. I'm a chip on your shoulder.
It seems like you're holding me down and it just seems pointless to work this thing out. So what's holding me back?. A lifelong friendship's not worth this.
I've got a stage and a mic. Which I use to say things you won't like. But I spent years thinking I was alone. . Now I know, now I know, that I'm not, that I'm not.
I'm gonna try gonna try to focus. I've been awake been awake and hopeless. Oh oh oh I know I can't count on you. 'Cause I know you and your lies and your mind control.
Breathe kids, the mold is getting old. It'll be gone any day. The hipster empire of tomorrow. Will fall to the common kids of today. . With tied wrists we're under their control.
I'm so tired of the stupid games you play. If I sat outside would you come watch me wait?. If I had a gun and shot it at your face?. Would you promise not to get out of the way?.
Drink up beautiful. I spiked your cup with angst and a heart attack,. 'Cause I've got so much trapped and it's all because of you. So I figured you might like some back.
I'm never waking up again so I'll never have to find out what you did. Each day it's harder to pretend. That your eyes aren't lying as much as your mouth did.
Hey mom, daddy left me here alone. Someone save me, someone save me. Hey God, I'm out here on my own. So now will You save me, now. . I think it's funny you've been quiet for so long.
I'm trying to create something that's not there. A spark I saw. A bomb is really just a means to an end. I was just so happy to be out of my shell again,.
Last call, lights on. Pull your faces off the bar. Go to church 'cause you need a good cleansing. Of body, mind and soul. . I never thought it possible.
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor. My head against the wall. But I did this to myself. Assume it's just not worth getting back up,. But I'll blame it on bad luck.
Nothing feels right. But my fake smiles paint pictures like everything's fine. Sheep like what they're told. So they've got spindles spinning bad songs into gold.
Nighttime fades into day. And a big mistake you didn't know you made. See if you can take it back. You thought this is what it seemed. Fate doesn't care about plans.