with this loathe engrained in me. i falter in despair. i perish away in my taint of shame. lost, astray again.... . lapsed in the enchantress mind. submissive, scorned with no will to find.
spending all my time. trying to prove to myself. you're not as hollow. as you seem.... . suffering and love seem to have the same face. same face.... .
i hide from truth. living in denial. caught in a dream. afraid of waking. see through tears. uncried and forgotten. someone save me .... save me from myself.
felt a stream of desire. will i see you again. disappeared on a frail lonely path. still your face i retain.... . reaching out to grasp your hand again.
bewailing my memories. my death is all that i claim. nothing could fill my inanity. my opaque apathy bleeds.... . afraid of this slow decay. you see me fading away....
deluded into despair. this emptiness. more than i can bear. all i own is pain and sorrow. all i know is guilt. anxiety, disgust of tomorrow. i'm drowning in my filth....
yearning for life. weak search for faith. see them all allow themselves. to be part of this waste. see weak vanish away. see them live with the lie. see just another betrayal.
you imbue me. you imbue me with your seed. and all i see. is me reclining you.... . i see it all. my ashen eyes still see it all. still trying hard. too keep myself away.