Visions of red. I never thought that I could get here. In the past the pain would blind me. And at times I'd wish you dead. Now I see a picture clearer than the morning.
You're 21 and jaded. While I'm just trying to survive but you still. See me smiling. You're arrogant like you've made it. Acting like the living dead.
Pictures on the wall I take down. But there's no frown on my face. It's just good to know that your breakdown. Has been put in its right place. . Criticized my mistakes.
We both dreamed a white fence. Would wrap our front yard. How my arms have held you all these years. Now I wake in the morning. And roll to find you. Damn you, sunshine and the shadows you make.
Excuse me, your honor and jury, pass all your judgment. I've been examined, interrogated my entire life. I never look at your verdict, but bailiffs, sometimes they read them.
Carried you across the nation. But my modesty wouldn't cave in. Until now I'd hold my breath. But no need when you broke the pact. I'd open doors, you'd close them.
You'd be a thorn in my side. Every doctor would break their scalpel. Trying to cut it out. I'd spend my time. Ruining moments you'd share. If they're not mine.
If you've ever been in love. Or ever hope to be in love. Here's a story you'll love with all your heart. . Couples on their backs in the park. Lay on blankets bought.
No, I don't think you're a bad person. For wanting to be wanted by someone. It's lonely through the night. But don't act blind. Your heart's not a playing card.
Hope you're listening. Want you to hear me. I got a lot to say. And get off my mind. You dragged my family name through the dirt. I kept my mouth shut, digested the hurt.